Holidays, Life and the New Year

Hey everyone i promise this blog with be happier than the last! So things are going great right now!My birthday is in a week and Brian is taking me out to dinner and a movie! Im very excited! I really love this time of year minus the cold!

Some things are changing i have decided to go to school! Medical billing and coding! I have a place im involved with that will pay 100% for it i find out in the next week if i qualify! So excited!

Things are great with Brian and I. Just enjoying our time together we have almost been married # years wow how the time flys!

Well things are busy so probably blog again in the new year! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Love ya ALL

Brian & Jamie

Holidays

So we had a great Thanksgiving we went to the Framptons so good! Earlier this week Bailee had her baby so we have all been super excited for baby WYATT!! He is so sweet and amazing and perfect! I am so blessed to have married into such a wonderful family!

I had a test done a few days ago for my tubes and they are clear however the test showed that my uterine lining was abnormal (whatever that means) but the dr said everything looked great and i have nothing to worry about! So thats good! I find myself having a hard time lately i dunno if its just cause the holidays or what but i find myslef getting sad for no reason ugh i just need to get over this and i dont even know where to begin! I feel so blessed to have my Brian he has helped me through it all! I just really want it to be our turn! I am just so sick of everyone telling me when its your time it will happen! Well i thought it was my time 3 times and had it taken away sorry to complain just sad right now! I really hope that soon things will turn around for us!

Love ya all!

Long time no blog!

Long time no blog!

Sorry everyone alot has been going on! Its been about 2 months since the miscarriage! I have my days good and bad. The good news is that i can finally say that physically I'm back to normal! For almost 2 months my body was till confused and i was having pregnancy symptoms (sucked so bad) Emotional I'm about 99% i still struggle when i see a pregnant woman or a newborn baby. I just keep asking myself when and why cant i just have my dream come true. Brian keeps saying that its just not our time and i get that i know that heavenly father has a plan for all his children but don't make me think its my time 3 times and than just say just kidding and take it away from me. This month we were supposed to find out what we were having. Ugh its all just not fair.

So on to good news i got into this study called EAGER its for women who have had one or more pregnancy loss. Hopefully next time we get our miracle baby! Sorry not a long blog but a quick update love ya all!

New pics!!

What a week!!

Oh my goodness don't even know where to begin. So most of you know that i lost the baby or babies. ( really not sure how many) Let me explain...
So about 2 weeks ago we realized that i was miscarrying. This miscarriage wasn't anything like the first 2! Something just wasn't right. I just couldn't pass anything and they were worried they would have to do a D&C. Last Friday i passed what appeared to be twins. The Dr said he was 70% sure it was. Started that weekend i got a horrible stomach ache and just over all didn't feel good. I still went to work and did the best i could just thought that i was farther in this pregnancy and it hurts more. I all ready had plans to go up north today FRIDAY and thought if i still don't feel good than i will be seen. Tues of this week i called my nurse and all though the pain had got better i was still feeling BLAH!! She said Jamie you cant wait till Friday you need to come now. So i left work and drove up to American Fork. The Dr wanted to do a ultrasound was worried i still had tissue in there and that they would have to do a D&C. So i went back in the Dr's office the following day and did the ultra sound it killed me. So there i am with my mom sitting in the Dr's office waiting for the Dr and the results nothing could of prepared me. He walks in and says the ultrasound isn't normal and he thinks its a ectopic pregnancy and we have to do emergency surgery. And i might lose a tube. So surgery all done with and the baby wasn't in the tube like a normal ectopic it was completely out of the uterus. So they cut the baby out and some endometreosis i had! And i had internal bleeding so this could of been really bad life threating in fact! The Dr said he had only seen one case like that all year. So not common. I'm in a lot of pain right now but emotionally I'm OK. JUST DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING THE HARD WAY!!

Sneak Peak! New pics!!

Sometime life just isnt fair!

Sometimes life just really isn't fair! Early yesterday morning I started showing early miscarriage signs! I than started cramping really bad! We ended up going on vacation anyways. I think it was a good idea been able to keep my mind off things! I'm doing better than I did last time but it is still hard! I'm just keeping faith and I know wheb its our time we will get our miracle baby! During this hard time I have realized how truly blessed I am with a wonderful husband family and friends! Thanks everyone we love and appreciate you all!

7 weeks and counting!!!

So last week i went and had a ultrasound at Fillmore hospital and the ultrasound tech freaked me out so bad he told me that he couldnt find the baby and to go home and miscarry! I started freaking out! Called my dr and they were able to calm me down just said Jamie its just simply to early so inless your having miscarriage symptoms you are fine. And lets just say from then and out i have got sicker and i just know everything is ok! Stupid guy!! Anyways im not for sure how far i am but im thinking 7 weeks and 3 days and that is the farthest i have ever been pregnant so this is a very good thing. I cant wait to go back to the dr on Sep 2! Brian gets to come this time and i just know it will be great! We are going to St. George this week on a vacation and im looking forward to going and looking at all the baby stuff! So far so good!!


LOVE YA ALL

Brian & Jamie

Dr. isnt worried at all!

So went to the dr yesterday! All though there wasnt much to see on the ultrasound i got to see a little black dot and let me tell you how in love with that little black dot i all ready am LOL!! Dr said all my tests were great and he isnt worried at all. Of course with every pregnacy there is a risk of miscarriage i do truly believe with all my heart we will have a new edition to our family early next year. Me and Brian are going to be parents! ITS ABOUT TIME! lol


LOVE YA ALL

Pregnant 3rd time is the charm!!

Yes yes yes!! Here we go again. Im pregnant. Im 5 weeks i know its really early to share the news but what can i say! LOL. I really do feel differant with this one. I really truly feel like we will be bringing home a beautiful baby in April. Brian is super excited to. He is going to make a amazing father. I have my first dr appointment Wed ill keep you all posted!!
Yay life doesnt get any better than this!!

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!!

I know it's been forever I'm so sorry. I have had alot going on and i got a facebook and most of you that look at this are my friends on facebook so you are aware mostly of whats going on. But for those of you who don't have facebook this is for you!
So last week i went up north for work. I stayed in a hotel in Springville for a whole week. And had to be to work at 5 and 6 in the morning to learn how to make biscuits! The all over experience was good i learned alot. I learned alot about training and managing. And i learned some more Spanish. Me and one other person were the only ones there that didn't speak spanish so sometimes it was hard. One time in fact comes to mind. I had one of the trainers say to me k Jamie I'm going to train you in the kitchen (along with 2 other people who didn't speak English) So for the whole hour he I'm kidding you not spoke 2 words in English! Needless to say i wasn't happy! Now let me just mention something about myself I'm never the one to give attitude to customers or people in authority ask my boss! When someone in authority tells me to do something weather right or wrong i smile and do it! And with anger customers I'm the same way that's one of the reasons I'm so good at my job! However with this trainer he just rubbed me the wrong way and i feel bad to say i gave him a little bit a attitude! (I'm sorry Tyson i was frustrated for many reasons) But i learned alot to bring back to our wonderful store! I was able to spend sometime with my family so it was a good trip!
Things are going really good for me and Brian he starts work in a few weeks and soon we will be buying a house!
As far as babies go i know you are wondering whats going on in that department! So last week while i was up north i was sick way sick so needless to say guess who thought they were pregnant! Ya i know so i took a test even before i was due! And yes it was positive we got so excited cause i was sick and now that we knew what was wrong with me the chances of losing the baby have gone way down. And i wasnt sick with the first 2 pregnacies so we were way happy! Than friday came my little friend! Right on time!! So im one of the rare people to get a false positive! Either that or i still had some hgc hormone in me from the last miscarriage but that was 2 months ago and was only 5 weeks along so i dunno what happend. All i know it that this time was out last straw so i know i have said this before but we have stopped trying and you know what they say about when you stop trying lol! But i want to focus on us and losing some weights and accomplish some other goals. For so long its been babies babies babies and we need a break! So we will see where we are after the summer!
I think thats about it for now i know the longest post ive ever done!

Love you all

Brian & Jamie

I know that it has been forever! Im so so sorry!!

We got a facebook and so i spend my free time there but i promise to be better at blogging. Good news is that we found out whats wrong with me and why im losing the babies! I have a blood disorder where my blood dont clot right, but now im on new meds and they are confident that ill keep the next one so YAY!!! Its late so ill post more tomorrow.

Love you guys

Someone explain!!

Whats in the water down here. I just talked to brians aunt who works at the clinic and she says in all the time she has worked there, she has never seen so many mis carriages. WHATS GOING ON PEOPLE?? Like i said i am staying positive and just going to focus on getting my body ready so i dont lose the next one. I know we will be amazing parents, i just keep trying to fiqure out what out trial is and what we arent learning. But at the end of the day the lord decideds. So im doing through waves im happy than sad happy than sad dr says thats normal someone just come save my poor husband!

Feeling Better!

Its been hard but im happy to say that i am feeling better. We had a manager quit at work so ive been working alot and that has helped keep my mind off things. Not to mention i have a amazing husband! Thanks for all your support and prayers. We will have a baby i know it its on the lords time and i need to learn to be patient.


We love you all


Brian & Jamie

Sad times.

I normally try to always talk about positive things on here. But right now im sad! My hormones are seriously out of wack and my head feels really funky, Im not sleeping, im very anxious. Im just sad all the time im glad i have a job to go to everyday to help and a husband who is amazing. I HOPE THIS PASS'S SOON IM STARTING TO GET ON MY OWN NERVES!! Any advice??

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABE!

Wow i still cant believe it today is mine and Brian's 2 Year anniversary! It really has flown by. By i can honestly say that I'm more in love with him now than i was the day i married him.
I still remember telling everyone that we got married and how shocked everyone was!
But marrying Brian was the best thing i ever did!
I seriously fall more and more in love with him everyday. We are always laughing and playing around we just have so much fun together.
And through the last few months with having 2 miscarriages he has been so supportive and amazing!
He is my best friend my lover and my soul mate! He is the center of my world and cant wait to start a family with him i know that he will be a amazing father!
He is a amazing husband and takes such great care of me! I dont know how i am so lucky!
Here's to love and happiness with my best friend!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BRIAN! I LOVE YOU

Things I have Learned in the Past Two Years...
1. Choose your battles.
2. Selflessness is key.
3. Be grateful.
4. Love each others silliness.
5. Helping each other makes everything easier.

Happiness is being married to your best friend!!

ABC

A- Age: 25
B- Bed size: King
C- Chore: dishes love to cook but hate the clean up
D- Dog's name: Dont have one
E- Essential food/item: Im really starting to love mexican something i used to hate
F- Favorite color: pink
G- Gold or silver: Silver
H- Height: 5'5"
I- I am: frustrated
J- Job: manager, house wife
K- Kids: thats why im frustrated
L- Living arrangements: Fillmore
M-Mom's name: Judie
N- Nickname: Jamiedot, james, frampton and jame and there is one i really hate jaime
O- Overnight hospital stay: we dont need to go there
P- Pet peeve: ya way to many
Q- Quote from a movie: fat guy in a little coat
R- Right or left handed: Right
S- Siblings: 2 brothers and 3 sisters
T- Time you wake up: by 540
U- Unique thing about your car: nothing
V- Vegetable you hate: LOVE ALL VEGGIES
W- Ways you run late: makeup and hair
X- X-rays you've had: again lets not go there
Y- Yummy food you make: sante fe chicken is my fav
Z- Zoo favorite: been to long

Another one really!!

So im trying to stay positive right now but its kind of hard! Well we found out thursday that i was pregnant. We were so excited!! I just had a really good feeling this time that everything was going to be ok. I just felt like nothing good take this baby away from me i felt so good. I couldnt stop smiling. Went to the dr yesterday and they did a home pregnacy test and it was negative so the dr sent me to give blood. Than i got home and started bleeding. I just knew i lost it again. And the results of the blood test was barley positive so i knew i was losing it. Last night was hard i was in so much pain i dont remember that from last time. I have all these hormons that are just making me feel nuts i hope this doesnt last long. But for now im taking the day off and resting and trying to stay positive. And to end on a positve note at least i can get pregnant now just need to stay pregnant. But we are taking a break dont know when i can start trying again maybe 6 months i dont know all i know is i can go through this again anytime soon!

Feelings...

So recently i have got on the drug clomid. For those of you who aren't aware its a fertility drug! I'm very excited about it. I don't know why but i just have this great feeling that its going to work. Now i know what your thinking don't get your hopes up again but its not really about that its weird i cant explain it i just know its going to work and i think this month is the month. But if it is you all wont find out for 3 months this time haha lol if i can keep that secret for 3 months my moneys on not but i will try. So after i started taking the drug i realized that i misread the statistic's for twins there is a 10% chance of having twins now if your blonde like me you might think hey that's a small chance than i read 1 in every 10 women will have twins on the drug that doesn't seem that slim to me YIKES!! Needless to say i might be a little scared. But we will handle whatever is given to us lets just hope I'm not the octamom of FILLMORE LOL!!

Getting Wood!!

We have a fireplace/wood stove in our house. And we have found it saves money if we burn the wood instead of having the heat on. So today i helped brian cut and chop all this wood for it. I look 300 pounds but i just have on 6 layers of clothes!! :)

Chrismas/Birthday/New Years

Hey everyone. We had a great Christmas and i had the best birthday ever!!
A Few weeks ago we went with Brians family and met my family in Salt Lake and went and saw Savior of the World. Its such a amazing play. Than my birthday i did have to work but only during the day. My family tried to come down to a party at our house but the storm kept them away. So it was Us and the framptons. I love all my gifts! After the party we just watched a movie it was really the best birthday ever cause i was with my best friend. Than christmas we spent at the framptons. I loved watching the girls open gifts they are so cute. Than for new years we went bunny hunting we only saw one bunny but the drive was fun. I have to admit im getting old when i wanting to go to bed at 9!!
Needless to say we had great holidays. We are blessed with love and happiness.