Brian and Jamie

Warning kind of a sad post really just a post to get feelings out!

2011-07-29T20:06:00.003-06:00

I have good days and bad days. Today was a bad day but i do have 99% good days so its not so bad. I know we all have trials in our lives to learn and grow that we were sent to this earth to learn and love and help thy neighbor. This is the kind of person i try to be everyday i try to love everyone and not judge im nice to everyone and where i work people really enjoy i guess what you can call my bubblyness my happiness my smile. I have grown into a very social women a very sweet and caring women confident strong i know who i am and i know what im not. I know i give it my all and take pride in what i do. I know that i smile 24/7 cause i think im afraid if i dont ill cry sometimes thats not all the way true in reality i am a very happy person im thankful for my blessing for my husband my job my family my friends and my support. I know that at my baby shower it will be big im not a private person and the whole world knows what im going through, and i know private people just don't understand people like me how i can tell everyone almost everything i guess i try to live my life with no regrets try to take every event that happens good or bad look at my part what i could of done to change it the situation and how can i learn from this. I know this sounds weird but i like to have feedback because i know that im not perfect i want to grow and be the best i can be .
I know for a fact i will be the best mom i know for a fact Brian's heart will be melted the first time he holds our baby in his arms. I know there ever since i was little all i have ever wanted out of life was to be a mother and a wife that's been my dream. So i have one part of the dream a better man than i ever could of imagined. But maybe cause i wanted a baby so bad that's why its my trial who know and we will never fully know why somethings happen but it doesn't stop us from wondering why things have to happen to us. It doesn't stop the questions the quilt the pain.
I was talking to my niece once about it (Taylor) and she said it so simple i said i just don't get it why do 16 yr old girls get babies and i don't she said it so clear and made sense she said because that is there trial and this is yours. I keep reminding myself that whenever i get down that these women have babies and i don't. I was so sad today i was just sobbing and i haven't really done that in about a month in a half but as i was speaking to our heavenly father i said please don't take another one from me but i know he knows best and he wont give me what i cant handle and for some reason he wants me really really strong i just want my other half of my dream to come true and i know that baby will be so loved i wish we could just say k ive learned next trial please i wish it worked that way but we all know it doesn't, there are times i wonder if i will have give birth to a child (i always know we can adopt) but the drs seem to think i will have a baby but im scared because each time a little peace of me dies inside and changes me forever some good some bad sometimes i just want to run away and give up some days i feel so lost and alone but than i think of my faith and i trust my heavenly father that he knows what he is doing and im putting it in his hands.
I really try to learn and grow everyday and become just a little better in every way i am a confident women i have a big heart and i have the ability to help others and with all the pain and sadness the positive that has come out of this is the group i have created i know i have helped many women and learned alot from them as well and i have great support and made some amazing friends. Its great to have someone to talk to who has walked in your shoes i hope someday my dreams will come true and have someone to call me mom.

Dont even know where to start!

2011-07-26T19:37:00.005-06:00

Well lets start with good news first WE ARE MOVING! Not far just a few blocks away but we are moving next door to Brians parents and to be honest i cant wait i think it will be so awesome lliving next to them. The house isnt bigger but the layout plan makes it feel like it is the kitchen is better the laurndry room is better and there is a huge yard and thats really good cause other good news we got a new puppy her name is SADIE!

She is 3 months old and she mostly lab but has a little bit of golden retriever in her, on a sad note my momma kitty ran away we are still praying for her to come back!

So with the good comes the bad most of you all ready know that i have another miscarriage my 4th im just finally getting back to a good place but as always after them i really struggle and its hard to move on here is something i would like to share with my family and friends

Ive
had 4 miscarriages I don't understand all these emotions I am feeling.
Will you try to understand and help me? PLEASE LET ME MOURN I may act
and appear together, but I am not. Often it hurts so much I can hardly
bear it. PLEASE LET ME MOURN Don't expect too much from me. I will try
to help you know what I can and cannot handle. Sometimes I am not
always sure. PLEASE LET ME MOURN Let me talk about my miscarriage. I
need to talk, it's part of the healing. Don't pretend nothing has
happened, it hurts terribly when you do. I love my child very much, and
my memories are all I have now. They are very precious to me.

PLEASE
LET ME MOURN Sometimes I cry and act differently, but it's all part
of grieving. My tears are necessary and needed and should not be held
back. It even helps when you cry with me. Please don't fear my tears.
PLEASE LET ME MOURN What I need most is your friendship, your
sympathy, your prayers, your support, and your understanding love

I am not the same person I was before my miscarriage and I never will
be again. Hopefully we can all grow from this tragedy. PLEASE LET ME
MOURN God gives me the strength to face each day and the hope that I
will survive with His help and yours.

Time will heal some of the pain, but there will always be an empty place in my heart. PLEASE LET ME MOURN Author Unknown

Im sad and its hard everyday but thats all i want to say for today hope everyone else is having a great day and love you all!

Hormones on the loose!

2011-04-07T23:20:00.002-06:00

Not going to make this a long post but just wanted tosay im sorry to everyone yes i am sad and feel supported but im over it! had a few eye openers happen today and we have decided to put the TTC on hold till my hormones are back where they need to be! Need to get some thing settled! So we arent actively trying and just gonna have a 2ND honeymoon! Love you all and sorry if i hurt any feelings as mine have been building in and these hormones made them come out so im now going to come back to the Jamie you all know and love the happy positive Jamie im sorry i just got lost after the miscarriage and been trying to keep it together and i snapped but now that we have decided to chill i feeel like the whole world has been lifted off my shoulders! So loved ones again im sorry and the happy me is back love ya all!

FELLING BETTER!

2011-03-17T21:15:00.001-06:00

Thanks for all the love and support! I am so blessed with a wonderful husband, family, friends and a amazing support group! Thanks to you all!

Struggling (sad post)

2011-03-14T19:54:00.003-06:00

I really try to stay positive on here! I know no one like negativity! But im going to vent i have somethings i need to say and i know once i do i will feel better so if you are sick of hearing it dont read this is therapy for me and i need it!
I am having such a hard time right now ive been crying all day long! Sat i took a pregnancy test i took it way early but i bought tons off of amazon and thought what the hey! And it was positive i was so excited thought finally my turn and i will keep this one cause they are going to give me the shot looked it up and my due date was Nov 26 i was smiling all day and just thought its about time! I took 15 tests after that and it turned out it was a false positive and those are so rare! Leave it up to me once again to get something so rare! I just dont understand i know we all have trials but i do grow and learn from everything i have gone through on this journey but when is enough enough! its been 2 years since Brian and I decided we wanted to start a family and here we are 3 miscarriages later and heart broken! And i know that everyone is just trying to help but it just kills me inside when everyone says be patient your time will come! Dont you think ive been patient its been 2 years and ive lost 3! All i have ever wanted was to be a mom! Since i was 12 and this has to be the trial i have in life! I know that god has a plan and he see's the bigger picture i know how it all works people but it doesnt take away from the fact that inside of me im heart broken and crying and longing for that precious baby that i cant take care of! I really just dont understand i know that we will make great parents i know that my marriage is great and that i will be a amazing mom but yet all these girls who abuse there bodies get there babies and i wont even drink caffeine when im pregnant ! and yes i know thats there trial in life ive heard it all but it still kills me to get that negative pregnancy test every month! I know everyone says to realax not think about it but im sorry its impossible my mind works as though you set you mind to something and do the necessary things to make your dreams come true! But no matter what i do i can get my baby! I just cant do it anymore i feel so lost and helpless my breaking point is here please pray for me to have strength and my heart to heal! thanks everyone

2011-03-01T19:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Anniversary!

2011-03-01T19:24:00.006-07:00

Well yesterday we celebrated our third anniversary! Best 3 years off my life! Brian got me the sweetest card and statue of a husband holding his wife! Here are some pictures from the last few months and what we have been up too!

Life!

2011-02-19T21:06:00.002-07:00

Life is going great right now! For 3 years we have been praying for Brian to get a full time job. And last week we got the call that changed our lives! He got a job at the mushroom plant doing maintenance! Its a really good job and we are very excited! Now i can breath lol! We are still doing our ttc thing! Month number 2 and no baby! Im really hoping it doesnt take much longer! I really am hoping to be pregnant by April 7 that is my due date from the etopic i had in Aug! So im being patience but praying and praying! Love ya all

Brian and Jamie

UPDATES!

2011-02-09T22:08:00.001-07:00

So things have been going good! Brian had a BDAY and than my friend Jan and my dad came and stayed the weekend with us we had a good time. I am focusing alot on getting school started and my new website TTC after miscarriage really is a blessing in my life love them all. Well its late ill blog more tomorrow

Jamie

Christmas and New Years!

2011-01-09T19:59:00.002-07:00

We had a great Christmas and New years! I love this time of year! I feels so blessed by my husband and family! Im am just so lucky! I started a group on facebook called ttc after miscarriage (ttc= trying to conceive) its so great i am able to help so many women i just love it. Check it out if you have the time!

Still working at family dollar and Brian just bought a saw so he can go get wood! He has had a smile on his face since the moment he got it! He is so silly lol!
We blessed Baby Wyatt today is was so wonderful we just love that little boy!

Love you all more to come soon

Brian And Jamie

Holidays, Life and the New Year

2010-12-15T21:54:00.002-07:00

Hey everyone i promise this blog with be happier than the last! So things are going great right now!My birthday is in a week and Brian is taking me out to dinner and a movie! Im very excited! I really love this time of year minus the cold!

Some things are changing i have decided to go to school! Medical billing and coding! I have a place im involved with that will pay 100% for it i find out in the next week if i qualify! So excited!

Things are great with Brian and I. Just enjoying our time together we have almost been married # years wow how the time flys!

Well things are busy so probably blog again in the new year! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Love ya ALL

Brian & Jamie

Holidays

2010-12-04T18:12:00.002-07:00

So we had a great Thanksgiving we went to the Framptons so good! Earlier this week Bailee had her baby so we have all been super excited for baby WYATT!! He is so sweet and amazing and perfect! I am so blessed to have married into such a wonderful family!

I had a test done a few days ago for my tubes and they are clear however the test showed that my uterine lining was abnormal (whatever that means) but the dr said everything looked great and i have nothing to worry about! So thats good! I find myself having a hard time lately i dunno if its just cause the holidays or what but i find myslef getting sad for no reason ugh i just need to get over this and i dont even know where to begin! I feel so blessed to have my Brian he has helped me through it all! I just really want it to be our turn! I am just so sick of everyone telling me when its your time it will happen! Well i thought it was my time 3 times and had it taken away sorry to complain just sad right now! I really hope that soon things will turn around for us!

Love ya all!

Long time no blog!

2010-11-10T19:07:00.001-07:00

Long time no blog!

Sorry everyone alot has been going on! Its been about 2 months since the miscarriage! I have my days good and bad. The good news is that i can finally say that physically I'm back to normal! For almost 2 months my body was till confused and i was having pregnancy symptoms (sucked so bad) Emotional I'm about 99% i still struggle when i see a pregnant woman or a newborn baby. I just keep asking myself when and why cant i just have my dream come true. Brian keeps saying that its just not our time and i get that i know that heavenly father has a plan for all his children but don't make me think its my time 3 times and than just say just kidding and take it away from me. This month we were supposed to find out what we were having. Ugh its all just not fair.

So on to good news i got into this study called EAGER its for women who have had one or more pregnancy loss. Hopefully next time we get our miracle baby! Sorry not a long blog but a quick update love ya all!

New pics!!

2010-11-10T19:03:00.001-07:00

What a week!!

2010-09-10T17:11:00.003-06:00

Oh my goodness don't even know where to begin. So most of you know that i lost the baby or babies. ( really not sure how many) Let me explain...
So about 2 weeks ago we realized that i was miscarrying. This miscarriage wasn't anything like the first 2! Something just wasn't right. I just couldn't pass anything and they were worried they would have to do a D&C. Last Friday i passed what appeared to be twins. The Dr said he was 70% sure it was. Started that weekend i got a horrible stomach ache and just over all didn't feel good. I still went to work and did the best i could just thought that i was farther in this pregnancy and it hurts more. I all ready had plans to go up north today FRIDAY and thought if i still don't feel good than i will be seen. Tues of this week i called my nurse and all though the pain had got better i was still feeling BLAH!! She said Jamie you cant wait till Friday you need to come now. So i left work and drove up to American Fork. The Dr wanted to do a ultrasound was worried i still had tissue in there and that they would have to do a D&C. So i went back in the Dr's office the following day and did the ultra sound it killed me. So there i am with my mom sitting in the Dr's office waiting for the Dr and the results nothing could of prepared me. He walks in and says the ultrasound isn't normal and he thinks its a ectopic pregnancy and we have to do emergency surgery. And i might lose a tube. So surgery all done with and the baby wasn't in the tube like a normal ectopic it was completely out of the uterus. So they cut the baby out and some endometreosis i had! And i had internal bleeding so this could of been really bad life threating in fact! The Dr said he had only seen one case like that all year. So not common. I'm in a lot of pain right now but emotionally I'm OK. JUST DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING THE HARD WAY!!

Sneak Peak! New pics!!

2010-09-06T19:40:00.001-06:00

Sometime life just isnt fair!

2010-08-26T19:40:00.000-06:00

Sometimes life just really isn't fair! Early yesterday morning I started showing early miscarriage signs! I than started cramping really bad! We ended up going on vacation anyways. I think it was a good idea been able to keep my mind off things! I'm doing better than I did last time but it is still hard! I'm just keeping faith and I know wheb its our time we will get our miracle baby! During this hard time I have realized how truly blessed I am with a wonderful husband family and friends! Thanks everyone we love and appreciate you all!

7 weeks and counting!!!

2010-08-22T17:30:00.003-06:00

So last week i went and had a ultrasound at Fillmore hospital and the ultrasound tech freaked me out so bad he told me that he couldnt find the baby and to go home and miscarry! I started freaking out! Called my dr and they were able to calm me down just said Jamie its just simply to early so inless your having miscarriage symptoms you are fine. And lets just say from then and out i have got sicker and i just know everything is ok! Stupid guy!! Anyways im not for sure how far i am but im thinking 7 weeks and 3 days and that is the farthest i have ever been pregnant so this is a very good thing. I cant wait to go back to the dr on Sep 2! Brian gets to come this time and i just know it will be great! We are going to St. George this week on a vacation and im looking forward to going and looking at all the baby stuff! So far so good!!

LOVE YA ALL

Brian & Jamie

Dr. isnt worried at all!

2010-08-12T17:25:00.002-06:00

So went to the dr yesterday! All though there wasnt much to see on the ultrasound i got to see a little black dot and let me tell you how in love with that little black dot i all ready am LOL!! Dr said all my tests were great and he isnt worried at all. Of course with every pregnacy there is a risk of miscarriage i do truly believe with all my heart we will have a new edition to our family early next year. Me and Brian are going to be parents! ITS ABOUT TIME! lol

LOVE YA ALL

Pregnant 3rd time is the charm!!

2010-08-09T13:33:00.003-06:00

Yes yes yes!! Here we go again. Im pregnant. Im 5 weeks i know its really early to share the news but what can i say! LOL. I really do feel differant with this one. I really truly feel like we will be bringing home a beautiful baby in April. Brian is super excited to. He is going to make a amazing father. I have my first dr appointment Wed ill keep you all posted!!
Yay life doesnt get any better than this!!

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!!

2010-04-27T12:59:00.002-06:00

I know it's been forever I'm so sorry. I have had alot going on and i got a facebook and most of you that look at this are my friends on facebook so you are aware mostly of whats going on. But for those of you who don't have facebook this is for you!
So last week i went up north for work. I stayed in a hotel in Springville for a whole week. And had to be to work at 5 and 6 in the morning to learn how to make biscuits! The all over experience was good i learned alot. I learned alot about training and managing. And i learned some more Spanish. Me and one other person were the only ones there that didn't speak spanish so sometimes it was hard. One time in fact comes to mind. I had one of the trainers say to me k Jamie I'm going to train you in the kitchen (along with 2 other people who didn't speak English) So for the whole hour he I'm kidding you not spoke 2 words in English! Needless to say i wasn't happy! Now let me just mention something about myself I'm never the one to give attitude to customers or people in authority ask my boss! When someone in authority tells me to do something weather right or wrong i smile and do it! And with anger customers I'm the same way that's one of the reasons I'm so good at my job! However with this trainer he just rubbed me the wrong way and i feel bad to say i gave him a little bit a attitude! (I'm sorry Tyson i was frustrated for many reasons) But i learned alot to bring back to our wonderful store! I was able to spend sometime with my family so it was a good trip!
Things are going really good for me and Brian he starts work in a few weeks and soon we will be buying a house!
As far as babies go i know you are wondering whats going on in that department! So last week while i was up north i was sick way sick so needless to say guess who thought they were pregnant! Ya i know so i took a test even before i was due! And yes it was positive we got so excited cause i was sick and now that we knew what was wrong with me the chances of losing the baby have gone way down. And i wasnt sick with the first 2 pregnacies so we were way happy! Than friday came my little friend! Right on time!! So im one of the rare people to get a false positive! Either that or i still had some hgc hormone in me from the last miscarriage but that was 2 months ago and was only 5 weeks along so i dunno what happend. All i know it that this time was out last straw so i know i have said this before but we have stopped trying and you know what they say about when you stop trying lol! But i want to focus on us and losing some weights and accomplish some other goals. For so long its been babies babies babies and we need a break! So we will see where we are after the summer!
I think thats about it for now i know the longest post ive ever done!

Love you all

Brian & Jamie

I know that it has been forever! Im so so sorry!!

2010-04-10T00:33:00.002-06:00

We got a facebook and so i spend my free time there but i promise to be better at blogging. Good news is that we found out whats wrong with me and why im losing the babies! I have a blood disorder where my blood dont clot right, but now im on new meds and they are confident that ill keep the next one so YAY!!! Its late so ill post more tomorrow.

Love you guys

Someone explain!!

2010-03-08T21:52:00.002-07:00

Whats in the water down here. I just talked to brians aunt who works at the clinic and she says in all the time she has worked there, she has never seen so many mis carriages. WHATS GOING ON PEOPLE?? Like i said i am staying positive and just going to focus on getting my body ready so i dont lose the next one. I know we will be amazing parents, i just keep trying to fiqure out what out trial is and what we arent learning. But at the end of the day the lord decideds. So im doing through waves im happy than sad happy than sad dr says thats normal someone just come save my poor husband!

Feeling Better!

2010-03-08T19:04:00.002-07:00

Its been hard but im happy to say that i am feeling better. We had a manager quit at work so ive been working alot and that has helped keep my mind off things. Not to mention i have a amazing husband! Thanks for all your support and prayers. We will have a baby i know it its on the lords time and i need to learn to be patient.

We love you all

Brian & Jamie

Sad times.

2010-03-04T19:00:00.004-07:00

I normally try to always talk about positive things on here. But right now im sad! My hormones are seriously out of wack and my head feels really funky, Im not sleeping, im very anxious. Im just sad all the time im glad i have a job to go to everyday to help and a husband who is amazing. I HOPE THIS PASS'S SOON IM STARTING TO GET ON MY OWN NERVES!! Any advice??

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABE!

2010-02-28T14:36:00.002-07:00

Wow i still cant believe it today is mine and Brian's 2 Year anniversary! It really has flown by. By i can honestly say that I'm more in love with him now than i was the day i married him.
I still remember telling everyone that we got married and how shocked everyone was!
But marrying Brian was the best thing i ever did!
I seriously fall more and more in love with him everyday. We are always laughing and playing around we just have so much fun together.
And through the last few months with having 2 miscarriages he has been so supportive and amazing!
He is my best friend my lover and my soul mate! He is the center of my world and cant wait to start a family with him i know that he will be a amazing father!
He is a amazing husband and takes such great care of me! I dont know how i am so lucky!
Here's to love and happiness with my best friend!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BRIAN! I LOVE YOU

Things I have Learned in the Past Two Years...
1. Choose your battles.
2. Selflessness is key.
3. Be grateful.
4. Love each others silliness.
5. Helping each other makes everything easier.

Happiness is being married to your best friend!!

ABC

2010-02-26T22:27:00.002-07:00

A- Age: 25
B- Bed size: King
C- Chore: dishes love to cook but hate the clean up
D- Dog's name: Dont have one
E- Essential food/item: Im really starting to love mexican something i used to hate
F- Favorite color: pink
G- Gold or silver: Silver
H- Height: 5'5"
I- I am: frustrated
J- Job: manager, house wife
K- Kids: thats why im frustrated
L- Living arrangements: Fillmore
M-Mom's name: Judie
N- Nickname: Jamiedot, james, frampton and jame and there is one i really hate jaime
O- Overnight hospital stay: we dont need to go there
P- Pet peeve: ya way to many
Q- Quote from a movie: fat guy in a little coat
R- Right or left handed: Right
S- Siblings: 2 brothers and 3 sisters
T- Time you wake up: by 540
U- Unique thing about your car: nothing
V- Vegetable you hate: LOVE ALL VEGGIES
W- Ways you run late: makeup and hair
X- X-rays you've had: again lets not go there
Y- Yummy food you make: sante fe chicken is my fav
Z- Zoo favorite: been to long

Another one really!!

2010-02-23T10:54:00.002-07:00

So im trying to stay positive right now but its kind of hard! Well we found out thursday that i was pregnant. We were so excited!! I just had a really good feeling this time that everything was going to be ok. I just felt like nothing good take this baby away from me i felt so good. I couldnt stop smiling. Went to the dr yesterday and they did a home pregnacy test and it was negative so the dr sent me to give blood. Than i got home and started bleeding. I just knew i lost it again. And the results of the blood test was barley positive so i knew i was losing it. Last night was hard i was in so much pain i dont remember that from last time. I have all these hormons that are just making me feel nuts i hope this doesnt last long. But for now im taking the day off and resting and trying to stay positive. And to end on a positve note at least i can get pregnant now just need to stay pregnant. But we are taking a break dont know when i can start trying again maybe 6 months i dont know all i know is i can go through this again anytime soon!

Feelings...

2010-01-29T16:12:00.003-07:00

So recently i have got on the drug clomid. For those of you who aren't aware its a fertility drug! I'm very excited about it. I don't know why but i just have this great feeling that its going to work. Now i know what your thinking don't get your hopes up again but its not really about that its weird i cant explain it i just know its going to work and i think this month is the month. But if it is you all wont find out for 3 months this time haha lol if i can keep that secret for 3 months my moneys on not but i will try. So after i started taking the drug i realized that i misread the statistic's for twins there is a 10% chance of having twins now if your blonde like me you might think hey that's a small chance than i read 1 in every 10 women will have twins on the drug that doesn't seem that slim to me YIKES!! Needless to say i might be a little scared. But we will handle whatever is given to us lets just hope I'm not the octamom of FILLMORE LOL!!

Getting Wood!!

2010-01-09T18:09:00.003-07:00

We have a fireplace/wood stove in our house. And we have found it saves money if we burn the wood instead of having the heat on. So today i helped brian cut and chop all this wood for it. I look 300 pounds but i just have on 6 layers of clothes!! :)

Chrismas/Birthday/New Years

2010-01-03T14:08:00.003-07:00

Hey everyone. We had a great Christmas and i had the best birthday ever!!
A Few weeks ago we went with Brians family and met my family in Salt Lake and went and saw Savior of the World. Its such a amazing play. Than my birthday i did have to work but only during the day. My family tried to come down to a party at our house but the storm kept them away. So it was Us and the framptons. I love all my gifts! After the party we just watched a movie it was really the best birthday ever cause i was with my best friend. Than christmas we spent at the framptons. I loved watching the girls open gifts they are so cute. Than for new years we went bunny hunting we only saw one bunny but the drive was fun. I have to admit im getting old when i wanting to go to bed at 9!!
Needless to say we had great holidays. We are blessed with love and happiness.

FAMILY PICTURES

2009-12-07T12:59:00.003-07:00

OUR BEAUTIFUL FAMILY!!

How are we?

2009-11-20T14:07:00.001-07:00

Hey everyone! I know everyone is wondering how we are doing. So i thought i would fill you all in. The first few days were hard. But im seeing this dr dude that has me on hormones drops for a few months now and i feel that those drops help me get pregnant and now he has some that will help me stay pregnant. So that made me feel alot better. We are just taking this and learning and growing from it. Someday and i think someday soon we will get the chance again. I just wanted to thank everyone for their love and support. You all have been great.

Thanks
Love,
Brian & Jamie

We did it!!

2009-11-17T14:18:00.005-07:00

Hey Everyone,
Its been a crazy few weeks! We found out Nov 1st that i was pregnant. Nov. 14 we were sealed in the Manti temple for time and all eternity!! It was one of the most amazing days of my life!! I love it!! It was so beautiful. (Pictures Below)Now Brian is stuck with me forever (poor kid) :) I cant wait to go back all ready!!
Than yesterday morning at work i relised that i had lost the baby! Its been a hard few days. But i know that we will have a baby it just wasnt our time yet. Brian has been great he is sending me up north tomorrow for some shopping with his amazing sisters and their kids. Since it was my first time pregnant i couldnt help myself and told everyone in the world trust me everyone you wont know next time till 3 months!! :) there will be a next time love you all thanks for your support!!

Love,
Brian & Jamie

Family Pictures!!

2009-11-01T18:49:00.002-07:00

Hey everyone we had family pictures taken last week we really love how they turned out. If we get 20 comments than we get a free pic. So will everyone please comment thanks the site is Http://www.sweetlysimplephotography.blogspot.com

He got One!!!! :)

2009-10-24T19:16:00.003-06:00

YAY Brian got a deer Friday night. So sad i wasnt there i had to work :( but im so happy he was able to get one cant wait for it to be my turn next year. We are also so excited for the deer meat and jerky :) YUMMY!!

HUNTING!!!

2009-10-23T14:56:00.004-06:00

ME ALL IN ORANGE!!

To all of you that know me you know i come from a what you would call a anti hunting family. This week i did something i never thought i would do. HUNT yes thats right! I didnt shoot or anything just went out with Brian and Taylor and helped them. I really enjoyed it and next year i will be getting my first deer hopefully!! Now the hunt isnt over till sunday but i havent posted in forever so i wanted to update and show you the pics of taylors deer. Hopefully Brian will get one this weekend cause i do love that deer meat!! :) MOM DAD ERIN TRACI AND KIDS CLOSE YOUR EYES YOU WONT WANT TO SEE THIS!!

Hopefully have more pics to post sunday!!

Love ya all!!
Oh PS 3 WEEKS TILL THE BIG DAY!!!

Oh No I DIDNT!!

2009-10-05T21:08:00.002-06:00

OH YES I DID!! IM BACK!! DARK BROWN OH YES I FEEL LIKE ME AGAIN HAHA BLONDE WAS FUN BUT I LOVE MY HAIR DARK SO MUCH BETTER AND SO DOES BRIAN!!

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

THANKS JAMIE!!!

POLL!!

2009-09-22T17:28:00.001-06:00

Blonde or dark brown???

Yes im thinking of changing my hair again. POOR JAMIE!!
What do you all like better???

Update on US!!

2009-09-01T19:51:00.002-06:00

Things are going really good or us right now. We are getting ready to buy a house and to be sealed in the Manti temple! I have dreamed of this day for as long as i can remember.
And to be sealed for time and all eternity to my best friend c-mon nothing is better. Brian is such a blessing in my life. Over the past year and a half of our marriage i have been able to overcome things i never knew possible and with Brian by my side and his belief in me i have become the woman i always dreamed i could be. And as i think of the day when we will be sealed for time and all eternity it brings tears to my eyes to know im where i belong and with the one i belong with. My love for Brian grows and grows with everyday and i couldnt of asked for a better husband. And dont even get me started on his amazing family. They all are the best and i love every single one of them with all my heart!

GETTING SEALED!!!!!

2009-08-13T20:40:00.005-06:00

WE DONT HAVE A DATE YET BUT WE ARE THINKING NOV 14 BUT WE ARE GETTING SEALED EARLY IN NOV. IN THE MANTI TEMPLE WE ARE SO EXCITED!!

OUR DREAM TO BE SEALED FOR TIME AND ALL ETERNITY IS COMING TRUE!!

GOOD NEWS!!

2009-08-10T13:37:00.004-06:00

Hey everyone got some good news i got my old job at carls back. I will no longer be board at home!! Im excited to be working there again and having a place to go everyday!!
BOOYEAH!!

and the best husband award goes to....

2009-08-04T14:24:00.004-06:00

1. Where did you meet? Applebees

2. How long did you date before you were married?7 Weeks :)

3. How long have you been married?Almost a year and a half (CRAZY)

4. What does he do to suprise you?Buys me flowers

5. What is your favorite feature about him? His smile

6. What is your favorite quality about him? Hes a hard worker

7. What are some nicknames he calls you? jamiedot, york, babydoll, babe, jame

8. What is his fav color? BLUE & ORANGE go gators

9. What is his fav food? cluffs

10. What is his favorite sport?Football and hockey

11. Who said "I love you first? ME!!

12. First kiss storyIt was our 2nd date and i was saying to him how i needed to call loveline because the guy im dating wont kiss me!! HEHE he was nervous it was so cute i was the first girl he dated since coming home from his miss

13. What is your favorite thing to do together? Cuddle up with a good movie

14. How many kids do you have? 0

.15. What is one of his hidden talents? He's can fix anything and i mean anything

16. How old is he? 24

17. What is his fav music? HARD HARD and more HARD rock!!!

18. What do you admire most about him? His tender heart

19. Will he read this? YES!!!

Cut My Hair

2009-07-29T10:46:00.002-06:00

What You All Think?

My Loving Husband!!

2009-07-23T11:05:00.002-06:00

1. He's sitting in front of the TV--what is on the screen? Anything sports! Depending on the season so soon it will be college football!! GO GATORS!!

2. You're out to eat--what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?

Ranch every time.

3. What's one food he doesn't like?

Cake and i have to agree with him!!

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?

Pepsi most of the time sometimes he goes with the dew

5. Where did he go to high school?

Millard High school

6. What size shoe does he wear?

10 or 11 I think

7. Where does he work?

BLM

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?

subway melt

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?

Cluffs

10. What is his favorite cereal?

Almost any kind

11. What would he never wear?

Shorts and flip flops

12. What is his favorite sports team?

Florida Gators

13. Who did he vote for?

We didnt :(

14. Who is his best friend?

I hope it's me

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?

text. I text to much

16. What is his heritage.

American

17. You bake him a cake for his birthday--what kind of cake?

NO CAKE peanut butter bars

18. Did he play sports in high school?

19. What could he spend hours doing?

XBOX

20. What is one unique talent he has?

He is super hard working and a amazing husband!

4th Of JULY!!!

2009-07-06T14:19:00.005-06:00

For the 4th this we all went to Mesquite!! We headed there about 11am Friday along with Taylor in the car with us! When we got there we couldn't check in for a few hours so Taylor Brian & I went bowling. We bowled 3 games and I finally got it and now as Brian says I'm not embarrassing!! LOL
Later that night i went and saw MY SISTERS KEEPER with Teresa Jamie and Jess. It was way good but way sad last time i let them pick the movie HAHA!
The next day we bowled with the whole family i was on a lane with Stirling, Taylor, and Brian we bowled 2 games and lets just say i beat all 3 guys the first game i kicked butt!! But then about the 2nd game i think the guys were mad that they lost to a girl so they played really good the 2nd game.
Then I went with the boys to see transformers OH YEAH way good movie!! Than we went swimming it was way nice cause we had the pool all to ourselvs!!
It was a great vacation i am so blessed to have married into such a amazing and normal family might i add!!! For those of you that are aware of my family you will understand the normal part!! LOL
They really are amazing wonderful people & I love each and every one of them with all my heart!! Thanks for a amazing vacation and tons more to come!!

Tylers Memorial

2009-06-25T15:57:00.009-06:00

June 17 would of been my amazing nephew tyler's 18 birthday. Our family got together to celebrate his life. My dear sweet tyler I love and miss you so much happy birthday bud!!!
Look Brian is smiling! My sister Erin and the other Brian

He's so handsome
My sister traci and her beautiful kids
Sisters

Traci & Rob
Ohhhhhhhhhhh!!
The girls and mom

GOING PRIVATE!!

2009-06-25T14:01:00.001-06:00

Hey everyone the time has come to go private.

Please let me know your emails so i can add them:)

2009-05-26T14:21:00.000-06:00

MEMORIAL DAY!!

2009-05-26T14:13:00.002-06:00

We had so much fun!! My family came down and Brian showed them all the best trails!!

2009-05-15T17:10:00.001-06:00

What do you think about my little new baby Frampton baby?
MakeMeBabies.com - What will your baby look like?

My new sweet baby - Frampton Baby!

2009-05-15T16:58:00.001-06:00

What do you think about my little new baby Frampton Baby?
MakeMeBabies.com - What will your baby look like?

2009-05-15T16:48:00.001-06:00

What do you think about my little new baby Spencer?
MakeMeBabies.com - What will your baby look like?

Riding

2009-04-29T12:22:00.003-06:00

A few weeks ago my dad came down from Draper to go riding with us. We all had a blast. We also took Taylor with us. I love to show off to my dad how beautiful the mountains are. Im still trying to talk Traci and Rob and the kids to coming down with there 4 wheelers but every sat latley hasnt been the best. Hopefully soon.

Here are some pics from our journey.

Can I just Say...

2009-04-20T14:07:00.003-06:00

Can i just say that im so happy!! Things are just going so good for us!! I love our new house and i love this little ol town i live in.

I finally quit my job at Carls and now working only for Ralph doing insurance. Being a manger a Carls really was never my calling HAHA

And lets not forget the love of my life my husband.

I know that when i was little i would always dream of a love that could take my breath away and lets just say my dreams came true and so much more. I still fall more in love with him everyday.

To my husband and best friend:

THANKS FOR ALL THAT YOU DO FOR ME AND MAKING ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE!! I LOVE YOU BABY

2009-04-20T11:25:00.001-06:00

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2009-04-18T22:10:00.001-06:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Free family tree - Historic photos

NEW TRUCK!!

2009-04-18T20:39:00.002-06:00

Hey everyone we are getting a new truck! Not for a few months but we are excited. But guess how Brian talked me into it????
He says that we will need a bigger truck for the car seat! NOW EVERYONE DONT GET YOUR HOPES UP ITS STILL A FEW YEARS OFF!! But thats how he talked me into it anything will the word baby in it and im sold!!

HAPPY EASTER!!!

2009-04-13T11:53:00.001-06:00

We had such a good Easter! First we went to church and for the first time sat with our new sunbeams. Lets just say things got started out on the wrong foot!! During primary i looked over and one of the boys in out class picked up his leg and stomped on Brian's foot. Lets just say i couldn't stop laughing. It is truly something i will never forget.
After church we went to Gunnison for a BBQ with Brian's family. Brian and I watch Bree and Brylee cause Jamie & Kyle went with Jim and Teresa and Grandma and Glayde to the temple.
I had alot of fun. I love those girls. Cant wait till we start our own family all though this whole sunbeams experiences on Sunday has given Brian seconds thoughts of the whole idea. HAHA

Happy Easter everyone!!

LOVE YA

2009-03-26T15:56:00.003-06:00

Brian and I just got a calling to be the sunbeams teacher in church! We are very excited the calling last about a year and teaches 5 yr old. WE CANT WAIT TO START!! :)

I CUT MY HAIR!!

2009-03-24T18:45:00.002-06:00

I still cant believe i cut my hair! And those of you that know me well cant believe it either!! What ya all think???

MOVING!!

2009-03-22T12:57:00.004-06:00

Guess what everyone WERE MOVING!! Yes thats right! We found this cute little blue house to rent in Fillmore! We are so excited it will be our first house. It even has a white picket fence haha!!
We will be moving on the 1st! But the crazy part is yesterday we were all over at Brians parents house when Brians sister asks Brian where our house is from the fire station. He replies its just east. Well she had just heard of a house on fire just east from the fire station so we all jump in our cars and rush over to make sure its not our cute new house (of course im freaking out the whole way):) so we get there and its just across the street. And belive me it was bad (see pic ) brian says the worst house fire he had ever seen and hello he used to be a fire fighter so ya it was bad!!
Dont know how it started yet but no one was hurt.
And of course the whole town of Fillmore was there watching the house burn to the ground it was quite a site.

LOVE YA ALL

Brian and Jamie

1 Year Anniversary!!

2009-03-03T21:07:00.006-07:00

Saturday Brian and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary. I cant believe that we have been married a whole year! Its been a wild ride but worth every minute. I cant even being to express the love i have for Brian. Im so lucky and so blessed to wake up every morning to him. Who would have known that all my dreams were about to come true the day i met him. I never knew love like this was possible. To my lover, husband and best friend, THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO FOR ME! EVERY DAY IM WITH YOU I HAVE A BLAST AND HERE IS TO 100 MORE YEARS WITH MY BEST FRIEND!

2009-02-16T18:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Valentines day!! :)

2009-02-16T18:18:00.008-07:00

Me and Brian had a blast on Valentines Day!! We spent the whole day with each other. We went and rented a movie (PROM DATE) ya it was lame dont waste your time but it didnt keep us from having a good Valentines Day! We cooked dinner together we had Deer and yummy potatoes and salad.

Brian cooked the potatoes they were yummy!! I cooked the Deer and for those of you that know me that is new to me. I called and text lots of you for help but Brian says it was one of the best he had ever had so props to me!!
Can i just say that i love my husband so much he got me the sweetest gift he knows just what i like. He got me a really cute decoration for our living room that had a big and heart and flowers on it. He is really is amazing we love each other so much and i know that it shows. Here are to more amazing Valentines days together! Oh and we have our 1 year coming up soon as well. I will be working that night so we might plan something special in a few weeks.
Love you all,

Brian & Jamie

2009-02-07T21:04:00.000-07:00

Gone SHOOTING!

2009-02-07T20:55:00.005-07:00

So today we decided to go shoot Brians guns. Ok my family everyone breath. I only shot the 22 not the sniper looking one! That one was way to loud and scared me i had to cover my ears!!:) I did really good i didnt just shoot one and than say ok im done like the first time i shoot several rounds and even asked him to reload so i could shoot some more. He was proud!!
But here are some pics from our little journey, he even let me wear his hat!

Love you all,

Brian & Jamie

Its been a WHILE!!

2009-01-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

Well i know its been a few months since our last update and im very sorry its been a crazy few months as im sure all of you know. As of now things are going great. I started a new job at Carls Jr. Not my favorite but im a assit manager so its not to bad. And im waiting to hear back from another possible job (fingers crossed).
We are having a blast together spending ever moment we can with one another! For my birthday (my first birthday with Brian) he woke me up at 11:45pm and had me open my presant, it was the soft beautiful amazing robe. I LOVE IT!! Im always wearing it, than later that day he took me to Cedar City and we went shopping (haha for a XBOX) :) than he took me to a movie. YES MAN!! It was way funny, but when we got out of the movie the snow was a falling BAD!! Lets just say that the ride home wasnt pretty!! I have the most amazing husband and i couldnt love someone more! Im so lucky and greatful to have found the love of my life and have him be the greatest man i have ever known. I am married to my best friend! And will have a lifetime of laughter, endless smiles, kids, and a bright future with my loving husband! Im so thankful for the last few months and what i have learned and how i have grown. I will forever cherish the love and support i have recieved from Brian and our families. It has all meant the world to me and THANK YOU ALL!
The last few months i spent with my beautiful Sister and her family, To TRACI (my hero) There are no words to express how much i love and look up to you! YOU WILL FOREVER BE THE ONE I STRIVE TO BE LIKE! I LOVE YOU THANK YOU FOR BEING MY BIG SIS!!
Oh and cant forget about Rob (your kind of part of the family so i guess i can include you) J/K BRO love ya and thanks for everything.

So you can look forward to more updates in the future and i promise not to let it go that long again.

Love you all!!

2008-10-20T18:21:00.001-06:00

4 Things

2008-10-20T17:37:00.002-06:00

4 Things I Adore About My Husband
1. The way he looks at me!
2. His laugh and the way he makes me laugh.
3. He is my best friend!
4. He has made all my dreams come true!

4 Movies I Could Watch More Than Once
1. Christmas vacation
2. Overboard
3. Pirates of the Caribbean
4. Mr. Brooks

4 TV Show I could Watch More Than Once
1. The O.C.
2. One Tree Hill
3. Friends
4. Family Guy

4 Places I have Been
1. Hawaii
2. Washington D.C.
3. Florida
4. California lots of times

4 People Who Email Me Regularly
1. Kasia
2. Grandma Bond
3. Dad
4. Traci

4 Favorite Foods
1. Mushrooms
2. Jalapeno Poppers
3. Steak
4. And anything at Tepenyaki

4 Places I Would Like to Visit
1. Europe
2. New York
3. Missouri
4. Bahamas

4 Things I am Looking Forward to in the Next Year
1. Getting Sealed in the temple
2. 1 year anniversary
3. 1st Christmas with Brian
4. 1st Birthday with Brian

4 People I would Like to Tag
1. Jamie
2. Jessica
3. ??
4. I'm still new to this and i don't know anyone else haha LOL

1st Blog

2008-10-20T16:53:00.003-06:00

Hey family and friends,
We now have a blog yay!! I originally wasn't going to start a blog till we had kids but i thought with it being a few years away i might as well start now.
So bare with me I'm new to this whole blog thing. I'm a master at myspace but still learning the ways of facebook and this.

As of the now the only news is i finished my nephew Tyler's website. Tylerbleyl.com i think its amazing. I really love how it turned out. I love that its a celebration of his life and a way for everyone to come together and share thoughts, feelings and memories. At first it was hard. I cried the first day seeing all the pics and sharing how i felt on there really got to me. But its normal cause it hasn't even been a month since he passed away so its ok to still cry about it.
I take it one day at a time. And other days are harder than others. The nights are even harder. I'm so lucky to have Brian in my life. I really don't know how i would of made it without his love and support! Even though its been almost a month sometimes its still unreal to me. I say the words when Ty died and i have to stop for a moment and think did that really happen.

The words still haunt me. I wonder if that will ever go away. I'm really going to miss him. After all i did know him for 17 years. And even though he was my nephew i still will always feel as if he were my brother. Tyler was born when i was 6. So i didn't watch him grow up i grew up with him. I was there for his first step, first word, i was there for it all. My real brothers and sisters are in there 40's most of them so there kids in reality are more like my siblings.
Its still all so hard. But i was able to find some peace if you can believe that. The first week was the hardest. It was hard for me to even get out of bed and it also didn't help that i had pneumonia. But i was asking so many questions trying to find answers and make sense of it all. I was driving Brian crazy constantly crying and not knowing what to do. Then i realized that i need to go be with my family up north, I needed to morn with them. I needed to find peace and the best way was to be with my sister, Rob and the kids.

So right when i walked in their house it was like a ton of bricks hit me as Tyler's presence fell over me. It was the best feeling in the world. As i started spending time with them, morning with them and talking. I was able to find that they had the same questions as well. I don't know when it happen for sure but somewhere in all this i was able to find peace. Knowing that it was a accident. Knowing that our heavenly father needed him home. That it was just his time. Knowing i should of listen to Brian. The whole time i was asking him all of my questions he just kept saying to me Jamie all this doesn't matter. All that matters is he is happy, safe and with heavenly father. And he is so right.

I will always miss Ty you better believe that. But if and when i cry it will be for the fact that i miss him and that's the ok cry. I have learned that i can not dwell in this. And that i need to deal with this as healthy as i can. For this is by far the worst thing i have ever gone through and since i have a history of not dealing with things well or not dealing with them at all i know how important it is to do it the right way and not keep it all bottled up but not dwell. I'm so lucky to have the gospel and the knowledge that i will see him again. Brian kept saying to me that when he was on his mission he met all kinds of families that lost someone and didn't have the knowledge that we do and just thought their loved ones were in limbo and that they would never see them again. I know that without the gospel i don't think i would of made it through this. Or without the love of my husband.

So creating this website has been healing as well as fun. I have found out some amazing stuff i didn't know how about Ty. He touched so many peoples lives. He was only 17 and there were over 1000 people at his memorial. He truly was a amazing boy and he will be missed by so many.

I'm so proud of my family. The way we have all come together is amazing. Even my parents and for those of you that know my parents know that hell froze over for my parents to be getting along.
I'm so proud of my sister and Rob and their kids. They have truly been inspiring.
So everyone check out the website and let me know what you think. tylerbleyl.com

Brian and Jamie

Warning kind of a sad post really just a post to get feelings out!

Dont even know where to start!

Hormones on the loose!

FELLING BETTER!

Struggling (sad post)

Happy Anniversary!

Life!

UPDATES!

Christmas and New Years!

Holidays, Life and the New Year

Holidays

Long time no blog!

Long time no blog!

New pics!!

What a week!!

Sneak Peak! New pics!!

Sometime life just isnt fair!

7 weeks and counting!!!

Dr. isnt worried at all!

Pregnant 3rd time is the charm!!

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!!

I know that it has been forever! Im so so sorry!!

Someone explain!!

Feeling Better!

Sad times.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABE!

ABC

Another one really!!

Feelings...

Getting Wood!!

Chrismas/Birthday/New Years

FAMILY PICTURES

How are we?

We did it!!

Family Pictures!!

He got One!!!! :)

HUNTING!!!

Oh No I DIDNT!!

POLL!!

Update on US!!

GETTING SEALED!!!!!

GOOD NEWS!!

and the best husband award goes to....

Cut My Hair

My Loving Husband!!

4th Of JULY!!!

Tylers Memorial

GOING PRIVATE!!

MEMORIAL DAY!!

My new sweet baby - Frampton Baby!

**Riding**

Can I just Say...

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

NEW TRUCK!!

HAPPY EASTER!!!

I CUT MY HAIR!!

MOVING!!

1 Year Anniversary!!

Happy Valentines day!! :)

Gone SHOOTING!

Its been a WHILE!!

4 Things

1st Blog

Riding